maturity

so laura had it hard all along. holden never once gave her a break. rumour had it her dad was some big shot buying her loads of votes via company employees - suitably damaging information for us to click our tongues and shake our heads. and yes, she was clearly never one of the better few. her song choices didn't rock. her voice was mediocre at best. her musical abilities as a whole wasn't mind blowing. she stirred neither fondness nor dislike in me, which is potentially worse than having someone feel strongly - in a good way or bad - toward you. a person whose guts you abhorred, say, was at least someone you felt about more than an nonentity would even skim cross your mind.

ok, so i think she was the best looking, best dressed girl in the game, significantly important parts of showbiz. but when it came down to having other more talented competitors kicked out instead of her, well. that wasn't on - especially when the five lowest voted for contestants stood apart by less than 1% - and all the more, when it boiled down to a toss between her and james. (go james!)

my point then, is that having come to have seen her in the bottom three the last couple of weeks, i realized that her responses to the everything she has had to go through has been golden.

let me clarify: her ability to swallow the acidic comments thrown her way is noteworthy - she never shrugs them off with a blonde oh-but-i-did-my-best, gives the thank-you-for-your-comment speech while shooting off up-yours glares, or turns on the crying machine. as far as i can remember, she didn't play the airhead, bitch, ice-queen, or snob cards. yes, she may have been a little cool, had a defense machanism moment or two, but doesn't everyone?

in a word, she was classy (and i grumpily acknowledge that my least favourite judge who loves fence sitting, isn't particularly bright in more ways that one, and who constantly contradicts herself [guess that goes together with not being too smart hey] put it succinctly [ok fine, she has good moments - very rare ones]). it never hit me at once, but when i thought about it, i realized how much she too into her stride. was it merely the works of a good actor? i don't know. still i think her nanobreakdown at the end illustrates just how much she had taken in to be her best. (and isn't our best behaviour really acting, to an extent?)

sure laura wasn't the sharpest knife, but precisely because - what she did and how she did it - she damn well earned my respect. kudos gissara!

ps. surely i wasn't the only one to notice she didn't get her final road-down-idol vid as per the show's traditional send off? i know the world-is-never-a-fair-place sentiment, but the world of showbiz is sometimes just plain nasty.

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speaking of showbiz - sometimes, on the other hand, celebrities do so ask for it. like, seriously *giggle*. nikki hilton and kimberly stewart, of hilton heiress sister of paris and rod the tall-young-superfit-model-wife-collector stewart fame on rove live is like, omg, the classic example. like, we're blonde and beautiful and *snear* have no brains but our daddies make more money than enough (cuz in bimboworld, words strung together like no particular order surely mean the same one thing [ok fine, they didn't say that, but they might as well have]) to buy us brains, like, IF we ever wanted them. and why would we? we're blonde and beautiful and *snear* have no brains but our daddies make more money than enough... *giggle*

we're here to ooh ooh what are we here again for oh yeah look for like the "it" girl for antzpants and yeah. cool. she'll like get to shoot the ad with us and for reward get to like hang out with us and like shoot the ad with us. but oh *bambi eyes* who can blame us for not having a clue in the whole like, wide world for like not knowing what an ekidna is in the whole like, wide world. i mean it's like, only the animal in like, all the antz pants ads. like puh-leasee. *giggle* upset the sponsors (who?? OOH. them.) cuz we haven't the faintest clue what an ekid-- (now do you say that again? right. what is it again?) is? like, no way, they wouldn't couldn't be mad, surely, cuz we're like blonde and beautiful and... *furiously batting eyelashes* like, sooo hot. like, duh.

i would put up the link to tonight's show, but even finding out if there was one is not worth the effort. photos? of them not-that-beautiful-anyway identically bleached (on rove anyway) dingbats? not a chance.

what a waste of God's good air.