Ache

Sometimes I'm just waiting for the pain in my chest to subside. For the thumping to stop. For the ability not to react physically to kick in.

If I can control my tongue and harvest patience I never knew I had, I can, too, control my body.

If I can swallow things I never thought I would - mentally overcome them - I can also train my body to listen to me, not to react to those things I have to swallow.

If I can be master of my emotions so I am numb when needed, it only means I can master how my body responses, too. 

I can and I will do mind over matter, feelings over matter, body over matter.

For now, my heart is a panicked bird, but watch me drown it until it is a peaceful, sleeping dove.